I won't even deny it, I'm a bit of a birthday diva. I love celebrating another year around the sun and using it as a post to write a self-indulgent blog post that brags about myself and my accomplishments in the last 26 years of my life. But I particularly want to celebrate this year because I have been thrown some curve balls in the last few years (pregnancy, quitting law school, going back to school) just to name a few.
Recently, my classmates from the law school were celebrating a huge achievement; their passing of the bar exam. I was so excited to see the posts roll in on Facebook celebrating such an important milestone. The bar is hard; they had every reason to rejoice in their hard work and accomplishments. But I was also filled with an overwhelming satisfaction knowing that I did not have to take the exam. As happy as I was for old friends, I was equally pleased for myself because I had also found an occupation that was fulfilling. Even a month in, I can say with confidence that I love teaching in a way I never loved my law internships or classes.
How did I know that everything was going to work out this way? I didn't.
But if I have accomplished anything in the last year or two, it has been learning how to take my fears and anxieties about life and turn them over to God. Simple practices like mindful breathing and minimalist actions and living have helped me maintain a calmer, more purposeful state of being. I'm more aware of when anxiety, frustration, or fear are starting to rise and can attend to whatever is causing it and simultaneously turn it over to God.
As a daughter of the King, I have become more confident and assured in my identity and purpose that was created for me. There is frequent temptation to root myself in worldly things, such as my occupation or passions. However, as I've grown in my faith and vocation, have come to realize how peaceful it is to just be in God's presence and love.
Which makes this post much less self-indulgent. My victory, my success, it is all because of God. I'm so grateful for this season of life I've entered; calm, purposeful, and loving. And it is all thanks to our loving God.